Hiatus.

Until ISP is over,
Until my mood gets better,
Until I feel like blogging about my life again,
Until I feel slightly more like myself.

Xo.

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Today, I saw Wenwen. <3

And I saw my “brother” today. Who is a paikia now WTH.

That fact irritates me like crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
@#$%^&*&^%$#@!@@$%&*&^%$#@

What happen to that boy;
who I used to poke and strangle?
accompanies me after school when I had to do my art?
even coming back during the weekends and holidays to accompany me?
help me buy bubbletea and food cause I was too busy to get out of school?
entertain me when I’m falling asleep in class with his retarded text replies?
plays mario karts with me when I get bored of doing my art?

WHAT’S WITH THE PEOPLE INFLUENCING EACH OTHER TO BE GANGSTER WANNABES?!
I SERIOUSLY CAN’T UNDERSTAND.

You know how much I miss, love and care for you.
BROTHER, WHY LIKE THATTTTTTT?!!!!!

Please wake up soon and know that this won’t get you anywhere.
You will regret, even if you think that you won’t regret it now.

Turn back.

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Priorities.

1. God.

2. Assignments.

2. Relationships with people.

Yessss. Both assignments and relationships are just as important to me.

Yeah, and I’m gonna stick to it. I know its not going to be easy. But this time, I am not going to give up halfway.

I’ve wasted enough time. Giving myself 101 reasons why I should not to stick to it instead of finding that 1 reason to stick to it.

When all I need is just to trust and have more faith in God and everything will work out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

to meeeeee!

Am finally 17!
One more year to go and I’m 18!

Thanks for the bombarding of texts since midnight. I keep waking up in the morning cause of incoming messages LOL. But thanks! I feel lovedddddd.
And the those who called just to say happy birthday too. Makes me feel so loved.
And and classmates who wished me in class. Thankssss.
And and and also on fb. My email was flooded. Haha thanksssss. (:

I love all of you who wished me! Haha even those who didn’t also k.
Me love everybody!

Got my new baby today too, finallyyyyyyy!

Only thing sad about today, I had school. And I didn’t get to go out. D:
Got too manyyyyyy assignments to do. ):

Oh well. Am going to spend the next few hours left of my birthday, plus midnight till morning to do my never ending pile of assignments.
Wish me luck. Bye!

I love y’ all! ♥

flashbacks,

At that time,

I felt secured.

I wished to stay like that forever.

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I hate flashbacks like this cause it hurts to be reminded that things will never be the same again.

How many times I felt like crying cause I couldn’t reply you, I can’t even count.
My heart hurts very much, for the past many months.
I miss you very much, but you’ve moved on so very fast.

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WHAT THE CRAP I JUST SPOILED MY OWN MOOD OMGGGG !!!!!!!!!!! D:

I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF NAO WTH . ):

you ,

are driving me insane .

things are getting better, in a way. (:

Hmm hi, my second half last week was pretty much interesting. (:

 Friday was spent out with walking around bugis area in the afternoon and mass bs at night.

Overslept on saturday, cabbed to expo for camp briefing/pm and realize that I shouldn’t have cabbed cause almost everybody was late. Heart painnnn cause my money fly D: ! Bugis with ram, dawn and reagan after that to get anna’s present. Lol, ram was so funny cause he kept worrying if anna would like the present. oh and jon came later on.

Sunday was church in the morning as usual. And after service was the subzone event at sentosa, sandcastle making competition. Sounds pretty dumb to me in the beginning and I was super tempted not to go. In the end I still went -.- . Oh well, its fun anyway. LOL we like, stone age lah, use our hands and feet while the other groups used tools.

Left sentosa with emilie, ram, reagan and jon at about 5plus 6 I think. Emilie bused home, while I took another bus with the guys to dhoby. They went to the arcade and I trained to amk for k box session with aunts and cousins. Stayed there till 2am plus before heading home. Super shag lah.

And then for today, was supposed to go sentosa with aunts and cousins. But I was too tired and I didn’t go. Instead I trained to boonlay, met jay to go meet the others group members for camp cheers and stuff. Managed to trim my bangs today as well. (:

Hahaa I just realize this post is really wordy except for the cute picture I posted right at the top. Too bad for people who are impatient then. :B

Anyway, saturday was the first time out with ram and the others in a way. Cause the previous time I overslept, got lazy and didn’t meet them. We should go out more often man, its was fun. (:

Oh and today, I felt so dumb. Cause I didn’t know going to boonlay is further than going to expo -.- . Its so damn funny k. I was laughing at myself, yet again. Hahahahaa! I can so entertain myself LOL.

Okay, going to end of this post. I’m gonna go watch suju full house and then maybe start on the suju camp one or bof! Cause I’m curious why everybody is going gaa gaa over bof.

Bye people!

lost.

After all this while, I guess I have been running around in circles. Its like I’m trapped in a never ending cycle.

I’m sick and tired of feeling this way.

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leave me alone. ):

Sometimes I wonder is it my fault that things turns out this way.

But I won’t ever get the answer, will I?

i believe ;

Speak into this mountain
To move into the ocean
With Your authority
Given to me,
No matter what happens
Here i am standing
On the hope of Your word
Promise to me .

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Having normal cg after about two weeks was great! (:
And sad case sad case! I can’t make it for service on sunday. Nooooooooo. ):
Wah damn sad can!!

1224pm.

omgomgomg!

I know I’m posting for the third time today but, whatever lah!

Flame Dancers (Chinese) got GOLD for syf!!!!!!!!! Heh, all of the hard work finally paid off. PTL many many!!

This year like super uh, dance got gold and gold with honours. Cooliozx. First gold(s) in kcp history lor. Hahaa I don’t know why I so excited. -.-

Oh and guzheng got gold too, I’ve heard. Cooliozx! (:

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PS/; I got work in the morning tomorrow and I think I will oversleep and be late (again). Damndamndamn it. ):

PPS/; Tsk! I went back to school TWICE this week already and I haven’t talked to daddy like, properly. *shows extremely sad face.

PPPS/; What you said was what I needed to hear since so long. Thank you for believing in me daddy! It really mean a lot.

PPPS/; And I can finally say I don’t care. Since you don’t care, then why should I? Everything that you didn’t explain, it doesn’t matter anymore. I should thank you actually, cause without you, I wouldn’t have known my precious savior <3 . Btw, I don’t hate you. Reallyyyyyyy!, I’m serious! (:

1105pm.

pure madness;

Super to the duper proud of my modern dance juniors! Gold with honours for syf! I was like O: when I know about the results. Heheheh PTL manyyyyyyyyyyy!!
And now there’s still chinese dance. Well, sure can make it de! I think that this dance is better than 茉莉花. Its much much neater, thou its kind of dangerous.(LOL fly ah yilin!) Hahaa, more energy also lor!!!! As long as you all do your best, no matter what’s the results, you all should be happy! (wah i feel inspiring. O:)

WAHLAU AND NOW花開中国年 IS RINGING IN MY HEAD!!!!!!!

Danggggggggg. Sian full, have to work at liang court next friday and saturday. And I not working with eyecandy at all next week! Eyecandy working opposite shift from meeeeeeeeeeee! Sad uh, ame sure laugh at me one lor! ):

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PS/; daddy’s the bestest!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1141pm.

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the fear?

Today,
was a really great day and a bad day at the same time.

Great?
- Cause service was great, I enjoyed myself.
-Fellowship was at novena. (i was actually worried that i won’t be able to meet hm, aini and bff on time. and then Garvin said fellowship at novena! and the thing is, i didn’t even tell him that i need to be at novena or that i need to go off early! so cool uh! powerrrrrr! PTL many many!! )

Bad?
My patience was stretched to the max today. I was so annoyed that I wanted to scream every single bad words I can ever think of. Thank God for wisdom cause I didn’t, of course.

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Well but at least my sunday was well spent. (:

God of my forever. ♥

1129pm.

you are mighty ,

Met up at bishan as usual and trained to Expo for church and fellowship at foyer 3 after that. Shared food with Trena and Chris helped to eat too.

Chris was having a great time testing out the sound of the styrofoam on me!! He thinks that its funny that I’m scared of the sound made by styrofoam -.- . He was like scratching the plate with the fork and said ‘Oh! You scared of this sound?’ And I panicked and stood away from the table. He was like ‘Okay okay! I won’t do it again.’ And when I stepped near the table, he decided to show Garvin that I’m scared of styrofoam and he did it again! LOL! It was damn funny. And I found out that Chris is scared of butterflies like me! :B

Some went for the drama after that and I walked to the Robinson sales at expo hall i don’t know what with Jay the Domo, PeiSong, Jason, Aswin and Jolene. LOL they went there to buy caramel corn snacks!!!! Walked back to foyer 3, slacked a little then left with Domo, Jason and Jolene. 

Trained to Cityhall and got off with Jolene while Domo and Jason continued with the green line. Decided to walk walk around cityhall area with Jolene before heading back. Suntec, where I saw the roller boy who always say no to whatever I say (he recognize me omg.), Marina Square where I saw Lepinky the emokiazx, Citylink where I saw Alvin Kang and then Raffles City where I saw Michelle working. LOL, what a day phew.

Trained back with Jolene, and I alighted at Bishan and head to Roch’s house for dinner and she trained to amk and went home. (:

Btw, Ying Feng and Aswin Lauuuuuuu!

All the best k! Continue to grow in your new cg! Will miss you two a lotzxzxzxzx. Take care plenty and God Bless. (:

1043pm.

today;

Garvin’s house in the afternoon for cellgroup today. (:

Lazed around his house after cell till about 7pm before we left to the bball court. Sat there and chatted with KarWen and stoned -.- . Waited for the old man to call and then stoned for a little more before leaving with KarWen, Jolene, Ravi and Manosh.

Headed to the coffee shop next to the 7-11 to get dinner for old man and myself. And then walked home, showered, ate and here I am now. Going to watch Katekyo Hitman Reborn and then oh! Before I forget, I need to find chinese papers to pass to Moon and then off to sleepzxzxzx.

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Forget about the past and start living for not just today, but also the future. Hmm, it makes so much sense.

But how do I forget you when you are part of my today?!! Arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! 

 oh and, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILIE!!

I luv you veh veh much k!
942pm.

favourite favourite!

I don’t want to miss you anymore,
Itoshiku omou hodo echo again~

My new found favourite. (:
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Buttttttttt!

Kakashi is still the bestest! Harhar LOL. ^^v

PS: I’m a little out of my mind now. Whooooooooo~

115am.