this ain’t a fairytale ,

Slept till afternoon today, shiok. Only woke up when I heard my brother opening the door when he came home from school. Harhar. Okay, this is the only part I like not studying in school. Sleeping in!! (:

Cellgroup at 730pm later! Shall not be late today. No I won’t, no i won’t! Shall update later if I’m not lazy.

Ciaos.

I got super duper lufee as my sidekick. What about you? ;D

539pm.

Back to update! I guess I’m not feeling that lazy after all.

Cellgroup was just … whoa. The impact, the atmosphere, everything. I am so so motivated now.

1. Look out of your circumstances.

2. And act upon it.

Okay, and so the main point for me is to;

STOP BEING EMO ALL THE TIME!

There are others out there who are in worser situation then me and they are not discouraged and emo-ing about it. They move on with it, they count their blessings. I have to stop being so self-centered cause emo is being self-centered!!

-

Okay, shall end this post. (:

Baibai.

1236am.

slumdogz.

Hi.

My answer to your question is that; I don’t know, seriously. I want to know why too.

Okay, moving on from that.

Slumdog Millionare with Ruth, Huimin, Kaki and Celeste at Plaza Sing. Love the show many many! <3

Ate a lot of rubbish before and during the movie.  Harhar. And walked just to eat beancurd. Its nice though. Took 56 home that.

Lazy to elaborate. Am in a super bad mood now.

1252am.

tell me something i don’t know`

Oh dang. I ended up posting anyway! So much for wanting to post less often .. Grrrrr O:

Its only 204pm now and I wish for today to end. Fasterrrrrrrrrr! Wanted to watch my JJ Lin or my anime, but I don’t feel like. No mooooood. Been watching What The Buck on Youtube. Its damn funny, but I’m bored of it now. ):

I think I shall off the comp and stop using the comp so often as well. Its so boring using the comp nowadays. And staying at home too, is boring. Nobody talks to me, cause there’s no one home. I can only talk to Momo or the wall. I feel soooooo sad. )’:

I MISS MY BUSY LIFE!! (As in the one in school, not the working part.) I wish school would start, NOW. July the 20th is so far away!! Its like the middle of 2009! And now its only the beginning. I seriously need to get a job soon .. Cause I can work till late and go home late. Then I can have something to keep my mind busy the whole day. So that I can be so dead tired that I’ll just fall asleep when I go to bed.

I hate my life now, hate all the free time I have. I rather be occupied then doing nothing at all. Even though the people in secondary school tells me they are envious of me cause of all the free time I have. Hahaa weird.

Ignore this post/rant. I’m just letting myself drown in self-pity. I’m tired mentally. I’m feeling sad. I’m feeling emo and whatever negative feelings there may be.

I ♥ 周杰伦’s 安静, so sad. ):

我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你.

250pm.

the saltwater room.

The Saltwater Room by Owl City. (Click on the link!)

I love love love this song! So pretty. (:

Didn’t go running today in the end. Tomorrow instead, Gym!!

My cash is running really low now. I think I am going to get a full time job cause ShaoNing told me that one semester in Nafa is 2000$ plus. So that makes up 4000$ plus a year! Oh man, I need to save. And there’s also so many things I want to buy. ):

I am posting so damn often nowadays. Unlike the period of time where I was lazy to post. Double tsk.

If I keep thinking of you no matter what I’m doing, regardless of the time, is that called missing you?

If thinking of you hurts so much, does that mean I shouldn’t think of you?

But what if I can’t stop thinking about you all the time?

851pm.

 

where were you when I needed you the most?

Hi.

Now I’m eating my Meiji Black Chocolate. Black chocolate ftw!! <3

Okay, so i met Amos just now to pass him the JJ Lin cds that he wanted borrow from me. And now I am going to finish posting this, get my butt of the computer chair and head to Roch’s house.

I am bored bored bored.

Nobody’s gonna be at Roch’s house except for my grandaunt cause everybody’s at school/work. ):

And wahlau, I was planning to walk to Roch’s house to save $ but it seems like it is going to rain. Ahhhhhh!!!!

Okay, I’m annoyed now, pissed.

I don’t need you to be able to survive, but I want you and there’s no reason why.

236pm.

Edited/.

Yooooooo! I’m not annoyed anymore.

I saw Zann on the way to Roch’s house, read the bible at Roch’s house and saw my daddy on the way home. (:

Happy happy! Cause seeing daddy cheers me up. Thanks so much daddy, for just appearing in front of me. For no rhyme or reason, I always manage to cheer up even a little when I talk to daddy. LOL, spend too much time in your class for the past two years already!!

And yes, I am finally done with your present. Shall head to school one of these days to pass it to you k. Lurve moi daddyzx muchhhh! ♥

My mind is very confused now, and I’m tired.

Stone a little more, bible reading/quiet time and then off to bed I guess. Have to wake up early tomorrow cause I’m going to go jogging/running with ShaoNing. (Yes, I’m serious.)

918pm.

Edited again/.

Oh my goodness.

I can’t wait! I want to watch Marley and Me, Transformers 2 and X-Men Wolverine: Origin!! Soon soon. Grrrrr. Patience is a virtue. D:

Hahahaa okay. I really have to go soon. I have been stuck to the comp way longer then I intended to.

Love y’all, baibai!  ♥

1044pm.

labels or loveeeeeee.

It seems like everybody in Kcp would have known about the joke of jumping from the primary then secondary then to the ite next door. I think the funnier version is if you’re from Zion kindergarden. Then you move on to Kcpps, then Kcpss, then Ite and then J8 to work. OH MY GOSH!! Your life’s like totally stuck in Bishan. What a joke.

Bs was kind of funny to me today when Garvin mentioned about the bible verse that’s near the general office which we(the people from Kcp) never ever bothered about it when we’re in school until NOW, cause we didn’t believe it at that point of time. Hahaa.

John 3:16;

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

And so today was Aswin’s last service with us. ):

Dear Aswin,

I don’t really know you that well yet!! D: Oh well, but I already know that you’re a really great guy. And you love pink too! Yay!! Oh well, I guess I’ll still see you for badminton? Heh, have fun in your new cell group. And I’ll miss you!! Take care k?!!

xoxo,

Gladys.

122oam.

you spin my head right round, right round !

My father opened the letter box just now and I got my letter from Nafa. (:

I start school on the 20th of July omgz! By then everybody would have been in jc/poly for sometime already. O: Anyway, it seems that I have a lot of forms to fill in and when I’m done with everything. I need to travel to Nafa to pay for the administrative fees or whatever you call it, as well as to submit the forms. Gah, so troublesome. But never mind, it’s worth it. Heheheh LOL.

GET A JOB!!!! It seems like everybody at home is keen on chasing me out of the house to get a job. Grrrrrr! This time, I am going to try and find a job near home. Anybody got any suggestions? !! Adult fare is horrible I swear. That’s why I am going to try and stay at home/bishan more often. And I am also going to walk to Roch’s house more often, 4 bus stops k !! Just to save more money. Double tsk.

I’m sleepy, sleepy, sleepy! And yet I feel like and don’t feel like sleeping at the same time. What’s wrong with me? !! I think I am dying. Would you even be sad if I’m really dead? l:

imyr.♥

138am.

gladys is a very happy girl now!

Guess what?

Me and ShaoNing both got into Nafa!! Oh man, finally!! We waited like, so long for the results. Thank God we got in. Especially for me cause if I don’t get in, I got to take O’s all over again. And I think that I was damn retarded on the phone with ShaoNing and Ruth respectively just now. I was laughing like a moron cause I was really really happy. And I finally don’t have to feel sad and explain a longggggg story when people ask me which school I’m going cause I have a school now. Hehehee.

Okay. The thought of using my art stuffs all over again is so cooliozx. I am so very excited! Too bad school starts in july, which means I have to get a job until school starts. Bummer, hate working. But no work, no money so no choice. l:

iwyahtsmhwm, inyh. imyr.

1255am.

Mentally unstable.

Oh my gosh!

I think I am going crazy real soon and I really wonder why is my reaction so slow.

SO DAMN CUTE!! I don’t know why though. Its just so damn cute. AHHHHH! Unexplainable reaction of mine. l: 

I miss school, I miss the canteen food, I miss my friends in school, I miss my girlfriends, I miss daddy, I miss sleeping in class, I miss chiong-ing art, I miss the art room, I miss whining and bitching to daddy, I miss the blasting of music in the art room, I miss watching shows and mtvs in the art room, I miss going home at night everday after school, I miss walking home alone/_ late at night, I miss everything, I miss you. ):

Sigh, I have to move on! I can’t dwell in the past forever. But it seems so hard.. It seems like nothing is making me feel like 2009’s going to be great. I feel like I’m wasting my life away cause I am not studying like what I’ve been doing for the past years of my life. Fine, I didn’t study much but at least I was doing what everybody was doing and supposed to do..

I guess once I get the stupid phone call from Nafa I would feel better. Cause its only after the phone call I can make my decisions into reality. Whoa, I sound so.. Not me. Oh well, boredom always cause me to think in this manner.

irwytbhwm, iwyctme. iwtkwycsm, iwtkatgyln. calayhr, idmybwh, nmhmha.

1117am.

come home ..

After complaining for two years, I’m finally sick now. And my voice’s like @#$%#^&* annoying. Hahahaa.

Hmm, have been going out often these few weeks and my parents are angry and have started to nag. Whatever, Its not like I have anything thing to do at home. I guess they didn’t realize that when I’m home or at Roch’s house. There’s no one except my grandaunt. Everybody is in school! Sian to the max y’know. ):

Oh well, shall attempt to stay home more often before my father chains me at home someway or another. I shall be a good girl. [Even though I already am. Hmm, be a even more good girl then! :B]

 

Reasons or excuses, I don’t know anymore. I guess I will choose to believe that you have no choice but to do so. Convince me that is the truth, please ..

ilytmtlg. ):

Edited./

LOL. I changed my blogskin! Its damn nice, me like! (:

1032pm.

the best of us can find happiness in misery.

I.DON’T. CARE. what you think cause
As long as it’s about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery.

Fallout boy’s I Don’t Care. (:

 

 

Okay, lets see. Went out with mummy today, hahaa and I got my graphite pencil finally. LOL.

And I went to school today again. l:

To meet up with Ee Von and Amelia. Catch up session with them and also Wei Siang who appeared in the canteen suddenly after school.

Then off to Tpy i went to meet up with parents and brother for dinner and then home.

Oh well, that’s about it.

Oh my gosh, I am actually meeting Shaoning tomorrow to exercise!! What a change in me, hurhur. /:

Baibai. Off to eat supper then bible reading. (:

PS; I am finally feeling better! Hopefully it will last and it won’t go back to square one even when I see _ again. To love and not to hate!

PPS; Nafa’s results coming out soon!! Scared!! O:

dead and gone/

Meet Shaoning and Zuer to play kiddish games near our houses. Bubbletea with Shaoning after that which scared me to death cause Garvin sudddenly called and ask me why was I slacking and drinking bubbletea. In the end, its cause the bus he took happen to pass by and he saw me. What a coincidence.

Rushed home at about 5plus and showered before rushing, yet again to meet the others at 6pm, Yck station. Guess I wasn’t late in the end. Whew.

Ram’s sissy’s wedding was pretty okay. (: Got to experience an Indian wedding. And melted candle wax is funnnnn!  Especially when I get to pour it on to my hand and I can feel the heat and pain. Ultimate shiokness. Yes, I am sadistic.

However, I got to say. The whole thing reminds me of prom in a way, just that it is less formal and the people around me are all different except one. Made me feel kind of emotional suddenly. I was happily remembering what funny things we did but at the same time, memories that are less happier was flooding my mind. I wonder when can I remember prom and not be reminded of unhappy things?

Well, that was my valentine this year. Glad that I was able to spend it with some girlfriends, N391 and not forgetting my Father In Heaven. Cause NOTHING ELSE and NO ONE is more important that him, not even you.

PS; I can’t take it anymore. I am going to find one day and go tell daddy everything. Cause daddy is one of the only one who is willing to hear me bitch and whine without being annoyed. (:

what can i say, nothing seems to work at all.

Grr. Ruth and Peisong was late just now! ): But never mind, cause patience is a virtue.

Cellgroup meeting was fun cause of N391(duh !!), Ruth and Momo! (:

Btw,

HAPPY VALENTINE!! (:

Well, to my girlfriends, N391, brother(s), daddy and every single person I loveeee(yes, even you, you and you!)! <3

Cause without you guys, I’ll be nothing. Thank you. (:

I promise I’ll be there for you(all) whenever you need me, even to you too, friends or not. My phone’s on 24/7!

I love you, you and you!!

May you all eat so much chocolate that you all will look as chubby as Momo!

Tell me why
You’re so hard to forget
Don’t remind me
I’m not over it
Tell me why
I can’t seem to face the truth
I’m just a little too not over you
Not over you

Memories
Supposed to fade
What’s wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn’t think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside ..

truth to be told;

I’m home alone now (finally!!)and I’m sleepy. Oh noooooo! Still got cellgroup laterrrrrr. O:

Been reading a certain person’s blog, from the very first to the most recent post. I’m not a stalker hor.

I feel that maybe things were not like what people say. Cause reading about what she does and everything, everything that others have said about her made no sense to me. She seems like such a nice person, not like what I’ve been told.

Well, I guess this just shows how people can be unkind with words. Spreading rumors and everything. Who knows? It may not be true at all. In the end someone gets hurt because of the false accusations.

Double tsk. This shows how cruel society is. (shivers.)

Oh well, just felt like typing this cause I really find it unfair and partly cause I’m bored + hungry + sleepy.

PS; I think the remix version of Akon’s Right Now(Na na na) is better then the original one. Heh.

PPS; I’m wondering how am I going to solve this stupid problem.

PPPS; Also wondering how can feelings fade so fast.

PPPPS; I should not, but I still do. You cheaterrrrr!

Pissed!!!

I WANT TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW.

My mother is in some kind of cranky mood and can’t stop scolding me.

I’M DAMN PISSED!!

Wthell. She scolded me cause she insist that I leave my things everywhere and GREAT. She just vacummed my phone strap. WELL DONE.

Yesterday, my father told me what his friend said about Chc. Cause he said that he is worried about me going to church and all so he decided to ask his friend who is a christian. Then now he keeps telling me to stop going to that church and switch to another church if I still want to be a christian. Yes, I understand what he’s worried about. But can’t he just trust me for once? And to make matters worse. He told my mother and now I have two people taking turns to nag at me the whole day.

God, is this another sign from you? Cause its not the first time I’m facing this circumstance to leave and go somewhere else. Please tell me …

Cause I know if I don’t solve this problem NOW, I will be grounded at home, I will not be allowed to even meet up with school friends, my relationship with my parents will take a drastic turn for the worse and I won’t be allowed to go church anymore. ):

I WILL HAVE NO LIFE!! as if my life isn’t bad enough already.

And its impossible to talk nicely to my parents about this matter cause THEY WON’T LISTEN! Cause from young, whenever I insist on my way, they don’t  listen and I get beaten up instead. Even when I tried to talk nicely.

Argh. Why does this kind of problem always happen on me?!!

If only, if only ..

I WANT TO WATCH 原来我不帅!!!

JJ Lin oh my goshzxzxzxzxz. loveloveeeee, <3 !!

It’s not a bird, not a plane
It’s my heart and it’s going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you <3

Found this song today after forgetting about it for weeks. I love it k.

I just found out that I don’t seem to be feeling any hurt from anything else except that. Wthell, I need time time time! D:

Rawr, I’m bored. -.-

Oh yay! My 原来我不帅 is done loading!! JJ Lin here I comeeeeeeee!

would you even care to listen to what i have to say?

LOL!

I am waiting for Ruth to call me before we head to school to collect some stuffs.

Gonna go arrange the carrier to bring Momo out and dry + straighten my hair.

Update later. <3

Back to update!

I guess today is the laugh-till-you-ache-day and Mr D is an idiot. (:

Many weird things just happen! Quite scary actually.

And the weirdest, Nafa called me today to ask me for my home number. LOL WHY THEY WANT THE NO.!! Hope i get into Nafa. prays-

School for awhile. Dude, i still close the windows! Art room’s still the best. Novena for awhile with Shermaine and daddy. Then daddy went gym and me and shermaine went home.

Ohmygosh. Sleepy now! Gonna go sleep already before I totally get knocked out.

Baibai. <3

I ain’t lying dude, I ain’t.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush ;

More than words.

Morning prayer meetings= wake up at 4am+, $ fly(adult fare sucks. ): ) etc. BUT its still worth it I guess. [:

Yesterday was quite spent I would say.

Prayer meeting with Garvin, Chris and Emilie at Heart Of God.

Sleeping + breakfast with Emilie at Habourfront.

Shopping + stoning alone at Vivo.

Bugis + Arab Street + Bras Bersah (Spelling?!!) + Suntec with Huimin and Shaoning.

Bubbletea with Ee Von and Shermaine at bubbletea. (LOL and saw Wendy Chia!! :B )

Home after that and changed bedding + food + water for Momo.

And today;

Prayer meeting again.

Breakfast at Macs. (LOL LOL Happy meal!)

Trained bishan to Garvin’s house for 10mins+.

Home and slept.

Out with parents for lunch and went Sim Lim Square. (Got a secondhand Mac iBook. LOL HAPPY! And that’s why I can post now. Hp tablet died. ): )

Gonna go read the bible soon before I start dozing off. I have a lot to catch up!

xoxo!

PS: Discussed with parents and decided that if, IF I don’t get into Nafa (Choy, touchwood!!), then I’ll go back to school and try to ask to repeat in school. Oh well, cause its cheaper and I can concentrate totally in studying and I don’t have to get a job to pay for private O’s.

PPS: Still having that emo mood in me, sigh.

SERVICES FOR HAMHAMS! :D

THIS IS TO ALL HAMHAMS LOVERS OUT THERE YO!

Me and my Cell’s gonna start services for hamsters!!

Ever wanted to do something more for your hamhams when they pass away?!!

Ever wanted to have a wedding for your hamhams?!!

LOOK NO FURTHER!! DROP ME A COMMENT NOW FOR ANY QUESTIONS AND ENQUIRES!!

Prices can be bargained! So, comment now!!

 PS; Pass this message around to all your friend thank you very much!

LOLOLOL.

Ignore the rant I wrote below. I shall not hate but loveeeeeeeee! Well, eventually. Hey, it takes time you know. (:

Updates yo.

Friday;

Slept till 3plus. Ahh, the shiok-ness. Ruth came to my house after meeting her at j8 and bought food. RUTH GOT JACK BY MY HAMHAM!! LOL!

Saturday;

Cellgroup in the morning. Met Emilie and PeiSong before heading to Garvin’s house. Went off after cell and didn’t join cell to play sports. Trained to Amk to meet Oldman and AuntieStella. Paid for Oldman’s phone and Oldman left. Met up with AuntieAnjoe and baby Anthea. Walked around till 6plus before collecting Oldman’s phone. Went to Roch’s house for dinner before heading home.

Sunday[today];

Met with Garvin, Ravi and Chris and headed to Expo for service. Fellowship at Paya Lebar after service at Long John’s and had bs as well. Trained back to Bishan with Ram, Reagan and Reigi and am at Roch’s house now for dinner. Shall be heading home soon after dinner. And then meeting Garvin? Cause he want to see Momo as he don’t believe me that Momo is a hamham. ):

Okay byebye. LOOK OUT FOR MY NEXT POST YAW! SHALL BE INTERESTING.