i can’t be perfect.

back to school today and its a sunday omg!!!!

eh, woke up at 7 to type my crappyxz bullshit of a writeup. chiong to school at 1030plus. went to school and continued typing crapppzeeee for writeup till 3. went outta school, cafe cartel for daddyxz to check the other’s work. left at 430 smth, went to daddyxz house, downstairs with peining and jovi omg. i couldn’t stop laughing at that point of a time. damn funny. was damn sleepy cause i was like staring at the swimming pool and there was aircon. hahahaa.

now, I’m gonna edit and colour as much of the layout I can. gosh damn sleepy nowxz. how to last till few hours later?!! maybe i’ll be off to sleep and wake up earlier to do my work.

but before that, I think i’ll have to research more on edgar degas LOL. taas peeps. (:

stresssssssssxz. D:

really really stress now. ):

gotta find pictures/photos to print and then go print it, finish up my incompleted drawings, do explaination for pictures, writeup.. i really don’t know how am i going to finish by sunday. i’m no longer just feeling stress, i feel pressured, guilty, tired and i somehow wish that i can just give up.

anyway, i’m thankful for shermaine, grace and jialing for helping out. thanks! if not i think i would have really gone insane with this kinda stress. i’m gonna have to treat you guys or smth. (:

those words made me more frighten than motivated.

i’m really trying, can’t you see?

icebox, where my ♥ used to be.

prelim’s out, normal lessons kicks in. got results for the prelims, sucka ass.

art coursework’s still on. rushing like mad cause the dateline’s friday. stayed in school till about 930plus. shaozy, zuer left first. eevon and alicia left a little later. was in sch with alivin and daddyzx, dinner with alvin and daddyzx at mos burger. parted with daddy at the mrt. and walked home with alvin. (:

tongue tied.

chinese prelims today. total killer. i was dozing off during paper and finished just on time. whew.
i was still dozing off and was totally distracted as well during paper two.i got super tempted to sketch people wearing hoodies. gave in to that temptation after resisting for awhile. sigh. and i ended up having not enough time to finish my paper. temptations are annoying. sucks, really.
went to the art room after prelims. slacked a little, shermaine appeared. went out of school with shermaine and alvin. went j8 first, got daddy’s food, then went to the bbt shop. slacked a little again and then back to school.
stoned/slacked/walked arnd the artrooms for awhile, settled down and started planning the 8 boards. my boards are freaking screwed. others left at 7plus, 8. stayed in school till 9plus and then left school with alvin, walkwalkwalk and then homeeeee.
eh, i’m still like searching/researching for my boards since 11plus. gosh, i’m damn sleepy now. shall try to find somemore pictures and then print, maybe i’ll even draw! if my eyes still can stay open that is. heh. luckily i only have to be in school tmr/later at 10plus cause i ain’t a lit student. (:
okayyyyy, gonna go surf for more pictures! jiayou to myself!! (:

sometimes i really wonder, why do i put in so much effort? despite doing so much, i don’t see any difference at all. i end up being slower and everything. maybe i should have ask more questions instead of trying to prevent myself from getting scolded. maybe i should have gotten help, and become dependent and i’ll be able to get the work i did myself in half of the time i spent.
but in a way, i’m happy to say that i did not ask for too much help cause at least i know i did most of my work myself and i somehow feel satisfied. maybe i didn’t ask so much cause i know what’s happening most of the time. well, i’m also glad that i didn’t get scolded too often. just words said in a dissapointed/upset tone is all it takes to make me feel bad and somewhat guilty for the rest of the day.
so, yeah. yay i feel little less emo after typing this? man, idk. D:

yawnxzxzxzxz.

omg i’m damn sleepy now. and its 406am. T-T still not finished with my prelim art. damn, don’t need to sleep already lah. gotta think of crap to describe the pics i choose/draw and perhaps another layout? gosh, idk. and my layout freakin’ sucks. hate it! grr, but i don’t have time to change it sigh. well, hope that i’ll be able to finish drawing/colouring on time for the paper tmr/later. damn scared cannot finish lah. ahhhhhh! stress. ):

what about now;

whoosh. the sept hols are already over! not much time left till the big O’s!! ohmygosh! *starts to panics* gotta chiong studies already. can’t give myself anymore excuses to not study. art is not an excuse!!!!!

my prelims is pretty much a gone case anyway. sigh. I. NEED. TO. FREAKIN’. MOTIVATE. MYSELF. TO. STUDY!!!!!! *starts mumbling to self to study*

okayyyyyy. first day of term four today and had maths paper 2 today. quite hopeless. didn’t know how to do most of the paper. D: any kind peepos? teach me mathssssssss!!!! eh,

-had lunch in school

-went j8

-went swensens for earthquake!!! <3

-dao bao-ed food for daddyzzz and mr kang

-back to school for art

-slacked/painting/drawing/fiddle with pastel chalk thingy (omg its damn fun hahahaa.)

-shaozy, ah goh, alicia, zuer all left first, leave me alone.

-painted a little more then stopped.

-watched jireh arrange the 8 boards.

-left school with ms quek, daddy, jireh and reagan.

-decided not to have dinner with ms quek and daddy.(omg damn paiseh if i go. i’m like the only student!!!!!)

-walked home.

-chatted at void deck with reagan.

-finally, HOMEEEEE. (:

gonna go print the pictures alicia and shaozy wanted me to print and then off to plan for art prelims(omg, wednesday!!!!!). hopefully i’ll be able to read up a little for poa. i know its hopeless, but yeah.

byebye. <3

moo.

i went to school for art today or yesterday since its over 12. and i learnt something new. i learn that there’s a character in sesame street called Gladys, and its a cow. like ohmygod! well, at least i’m no longer Gladys the green dinosaur. roar, roar. -.-

oh and see the picture below? its Gladys the cow! (:

confession of an art student.

well, as the title says. its the confession of an art student.

art peeps makes life less sucky. super ♥ them!!!!

running in circles.

okay. its the first day of the sept hols. and i haven’t studied. help! apparently 24hours a day ain’t enough. D:

met daren in the morn, got food for daddy and went to school. more or less isolated and painted. wanted to leave at 6plus but i wasn’t allowed to leave till 8. so stayed back with jerry mouse and xtt. xtt is freaking nagging. i’m not responsible for her having to stay back. nagnagnag tsk.  xtt then left at 8plus. and i left school with jerry mouse and daddy at bout 9. walked to j8 cause everybody walking there and then walk home alone.

okay, gonna go sleep or smth. byebye. (: